"A secret may be shared and kept between 2 people, as long as one is dead."
This is the sentence that has bothered me all week/holiday long.
That sentence has made me think that there can’t be any confidence between friends and even made me realize that the concept of friendship has changed even more than I could imagine.
I’ve not told a secret to someone else for such a long time, because I have somehow figured the new concept of friendship for quite some time(luckily), I’ll keep doing that way.
The concept I figured was so poor, unreal and some other adjective I’ve never learned so far… for the first time I realized such concept, I was like “oh, after all the things you have seen lately, it couldn’t be that different aight”, but I was still desapointed with what human being is supposed to do; now, after the sentence mentioned on the top of this post, I figured it’s much worse than what I’d imagined - the level of poverty increased incomparably, I feel like I could trust definitely nobody, everyone’s supposed to do something to outshine someone else, mainly if there’s something backstage.
I’d lie if I say that I wish I had many more friends, or at least a second one, once it sounds impossible to have a friend nowadays, not that I’m so selective that nobody can be my friend unless it’s absolutely perfect, but I’m talking about friendship, it’s not something temporary, but something which’s supposed to last forever or at least for quite some time. Whenever I mention the words friend or friendship, I’m not talking about something that can bring me benefits later, but something mutual, it means, whenever my friend is in a trouble, I’m no way gonna let it go, neither if I’m supposed to get in such trouble somehow, or whatever. Not boasting, but I wish everyone had the same reasoning line as me, pretty sure things would be somewhat better; I’m definitely none to point my finger in anyone’s face and say what’s wrong or right, what’s good or bad, what they should or not do to make the things way better, I’m not even judging anybody else’s concept, I’m just letting my opinion overlaps my timidity and letting them unburden along.
Everyone may keeps your confidences with yourselves, but it feels much better when told to someone else, who is supposed to help you, or at least opine about so. I don’t think anybody is weak enough not to get to keep a secret between just 2 people. World has scared me over and over, I feel like I absolutely couldn’t trust anyone, whoever it is.
People might think I’m somewhat of crazy, or someone trying to be famous through freak/weird reflections, but no, I’m here to simply unburden, and for those who think it’s impossible to live with none aside,think over and take a look around, and try not to suicide after that.